Infinitely

I’m the mess behind the words that you read

The one that looks distressed as you see my scars bleed

The one facing the demons that only I can see 

Feeling every evil being surrounding me

The one who has to deal with all of this inside of me

And now the one no longer who she used to be

Not after having nearly everything taken from me

I’m this way because of what’s happened to me

But, if nothing else it only enhanced my empathy capacity

You won’t get to make darkness out of me

I’m the one who will always love and live compassionately

The one who’s light can’t be dimmed, can’t you see

This light, it shines infinitely 

Stillness

Standing in stillness
I observe the world
Spiral around me
Faster and faster
I behold life moving
I’m just a witness
Motion sickness
Hit me with a quickness
But I’m still …
standing in the stillness

Kyoko W.P.

With Grace

What if I decide,
not to be afraid…
But to embrace
the adventure
with grace,
not fear
on my
face

Kyoko W.P.

Anxious

I can’t even take this
I don’t have the patience
I’m nervous and anxious
My chest feels tight where it once felt spacious

Kyoko W.P.

Open Book

I’m an open book
Turn the page and take a look
Inside you’ll find every emotion and feeling
The trauma and pain that still needs healing
The once frightened child
My thoughts gone wild
The tears that I’ve cried
All the times that I’ve tried
The love in my soul
Things I can’t control
Every page, every chapter
Will have you wonder
How life hasn’t snapped her

Kyoko W.P.

Safe Grounding

I’m falling faster; deeper into the abyss
Thinking about all the time I might miss
The gravity, the force; increasing pressure
The distance from here to the ground I can’t measure
Increasing Heartrate, I can feel it pounding
I don’t want to die
I just need safe grounding

Kyoko W.P.

Anxiety

dig dig
bleed bleed
i cant fight the need

ripping skin until its done
blood is dripping from my thumb

dig dig
bleed bleed
this is my anxiety

Kyoko W.P.

Kyoko W.P.