
Kyoko W. P.
Kyoko W. P.
I’m the mess behind the words that you read
The one that looks distressed as you see my scars bleed
The one facing the demons that only I can see
Feeling every evil being surrounding me
The one who has to deal with all of this inside of me
And now the one no longer who she used to be
Not after having nearly everything taken from me
I’m this way because of what’s happened to me
But, if nothing else it only enhanced my empathy capacity
You won’t get to make darkness out of me
I’m the one who will always love and live compassionately
The one who’s light can’t be dimmed, can’t you see
This light, it shines infinitely
There’s a warrior inside of me
she gets me where I need to be
She slays dragons and fights monsters
all the horrific things that haunt her
She is stronger than you could fathom
she finds grounding where she lands on
She sings songs that soothe the soul
when the world around her begins to unravel
She’s always been able to piece things back where they need to be
She’s always been braver than any could see
The warrior inside of me
I am she
and she
is me
Meet me in a poem
Somewhere between the lines
Where the rhythm roams…
Find me in a verse
Don’t get lost in the rhymes
Or repetition heard…
Look for me where emotion evoked phrases exist
Locate me where expression and imagery persist…
Encounter me
in the heart, the home
Feel me
in the art of the poem
Kyoko WP
I can find myself in words on paper
Each verse another layer
Discovering with each new line
Maybe in a riddle or Rhyme
But somewhere within this journal
Are still just the feelings of a lost little girl
It beats;
bouncing bombastically
between each breath,
I breathe
It radiates;
Pulsating in my palms
between each squeeze
Two hearts
One song
they’re meant to be…
One sweet
simple melody.
Sometimes I feel invisible
Did I just disappear
I scream and I yell
But no one can hear
And then I wonder
Am I still here?
I feel forgotten
Like I don’t exist
I fight to be seen
I try, I persist
Am I slowly drifting away
Do you no longer see my heart
Right here on display?
I miss driving & it’s independence.
I miss walking without a Walker or assistance.
I miss dancing around without the fear of collapsing.
I miss friends & seeing people.
No one visits, no one’s asking.
But I suppose in actuality it’s really not that bad
It’s just sometimes,
I feel overwhelmingly sad
I feel like I’m failing
Don’t give me the exam
I won’t pass this test
I’ve studied
I’ve Crammed
But I still don’t quite know
who
I am
Like an anchor
You keep me grounded
Like the waves
You roll with me
And like a light house you help me through the dark
I am your lady of the sea
Wherever you are,
I want to be
You are the poetry I didn’t know I could write.
The words I never knew I could feel.
And the experience I didn’t believe was real.
And the biggest thing that broke my heart
Was watching yours shatter
I tried to keep the pieces together
But it didn’t really matter
The damage was done
My oath to protect you,
Broken
I never wanted any of this for you
To have your heart break open
If I could fix it with my words, well they would already be spoken.
I want to melt
into your chest
As I drown
to the song
of your heartbeat
And inhale your scent
as it sweeps
me
off my feet
I want to stay right here,
Drift off to sleep
With your song
playing
on repeat
The pain fades..
But
Somedays it rains.
And when it rains
The pain
Emerges in spades
And all you can do is wait.
No matter how much it frustrates…
You
You can take the time to create
I know the sun can be hard to locate.
But I promise.
It
Will
Be
Okay
Somedays I’m okay
But today is not somedays
And then when it turns night
That’s when my brain likes to play
Tricks on me
and my memory
Darkness creeps in every crevice
Tainting everything
that is precious
You’d think I’d learn some lessons
But I just need more sessions
Of Therapy
Maybe I’ll find some clarity
Find some familiarity
Because primarily
This will only last temporarily
And soon
I’ll be sitting in my serenity
You’re like magic.
You found me when my life was tragic
A mess of tears, panic
& manic
Admist my most dramatic
Going through something traumatic
And you knew how to fix it
Like a mechanic
It was automatic
We were friends, it was organic
But that grew into something romantic
A tranquil and serene dynamic
I knew from day one,
I could feel the static
When our souls met
It was climatic
Kyoko W.P.
Here I am
In your arms again
You opened up
You let me in
You took a dip
But now you swim
You kiss me once
And I kiss you ten
I’m your
her
And you’re
my him
Kyoko W.P.
I’d cross every ocean
Every wave ,every motion
To show my devotion
I’d cut my heart open
Expose all emotion
Because my soul has spoken
It’s you
it has chosen
You love me where it hurts
You kiss me where it stings
Your scent is like an anesthesia for the soul
With all the calm it brings
My heart no longer chaotic and out of control
Now my heart sings
To my Yang I found my Yin
Try as I may
I could never display
How much I was betrayed
In such a way
That almost put me in a grave
But there’s things you can’t change
Like the way you behaved
The mountains you caved
The games that you played
The emotions you disarrayed
The haunting memories you made
You had all your plans laid
But I’m the one
I’m the one that paid
My skin burns
like dying stars
Every time
you touch my scars
But even with skin peeling
I can feel the wounds healing